Unzapped by losing my cool today at work and having a massive argument with someone i work with.
Unzapped by my life in general actually.
Come onnnnnn 2012, give me something to work with here.

I feel I have sunk into a bit of depression this year and it is horrid yet again. Hopefully I will work my way out of it and perhaps the sun will shine enough for me to exercise. I have hit the booze a fair bit over the last few weeks which hasn't helped but life hasn't been very kind lately

That sucks dude. Drop the booze, trust me it helps.

I agree with derps cut all drugs and alcohol for acouple months and see how you feel. Ive pretty much stopped all drugs, stopped drinking and my mental state is the best it has been since I can remember. I use to be in a very very dark place.

Hey Romie, thats awesome dude!!
Good on you

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That sucks dude. Drop the booze, trust me it helps.

Thanks dude. I know the booze doesn't help but sometimes it gets me by when it is needed. Being outdoors riding hard on the MTB does it for me as does lure fishing and the sun which seems to have only been around for maybe 3-4 days in the last 14. Pretty tired of playing video games.

Unzapped. My nana would be 90 today just over a week from now it will be a year since she passed away. It's been a tough year. I miss her sooo sooo much

****y artist and his manager are making my life hell. Having to mix and remix shit over and over again because they didn't get the brief right in the first place (who makes the decisions here anyway? The artist or the manager?)

Two week project now nigh on four months. LIVING HELL

Tapered off the Zoloft because it's been making me feel worse. This is pure hell....I've never been so depressed and full of crippling anxiety in my life. Really hope this doesn't last long.

Despite my awesome weekend and good news, I am also unemployed by finishing my apprenticeship. It can be tough to find work in this industry (in the sector that I want to work). So tomorrow I must make calls!

unzapped by people, chill the fuck out and quit the drama

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Tapered off the Zoloft because it's been making me feel worse. This is pure hell....I've never been so depressed and full of crippling anxiety in my life. Really hope this doesn't last long.

How long have you been taking it for? Personally I found no medication helped me except for benzos. The best thing though has been looking after my health. Stopped drinking, stopped drugs, i eat properly and exercise.

I've only been taking it since September. Benzos definitely help but they're too addictive! I quit drinking and taking drugs as well and have started taking a vitamin b complex, omega 3, ginseng, and gingko everyday and within a week I've noticed a massive difference. Exercising and eating healthy is a huge help as well.

There really is no need to be dependent on that crap if you take care of yourself.

House got robbed Friday night, while I was in it, not 5 metres away in the lounge room eating dinner. Left the front foor open, and my bedroom door being right next to the front door, some **** has walked on in and grabbed my camera, wallet and phone off of the bed.

I barely even heard it, and thought maybe it was a possum or maybe my house mate waking up until 5 minutes later when I went to make a call and realised my shit was gone.

Ive lived in the area for 7 years and almost never shut the front door when Im home. Half the people on my street do the same and no one has ever had a problem. But of course, according the cops, some thieving rats have figured that and the local area has been getting smashed lately with burgulary/B&E.

Work will replace the phone, the camera was cheap and most of my photos are backed up, and cancelling/replacing the cards in the wallet is a bit of an inconvenience,but the kick in the nuts is now I've got to worry about making sure any door in the house im not looking at is shut and locked even when Im home.

Fuck the **** responsible.

Dude that fucking sucks!

Unzapped by the 4th car accident in less than 16months, non of which have been my fault. Luckily they have all been only minor with no structural damage. the worst part of it all is having your car off the road whilst they fix it, last time it took three weeks to replace a rear bar, tailgate skin and muffler. Fml.

@ Zodiac - I feel your pain dude. I got hit by a p plater 3 weeks ago and now I have no car for the next week. Fkin sux.


On another note - unzapped by having major meltdown last night. Was ok until someone asked if I was okay...FFS!! Dont ask me that! Until I get the counselling sorted for my kids and the mediation done for the custody hearing Im not ready to deal with my stuff. Just treading water until it all happens - at least Im not drowning. Using the gym as stress relief. Last night was hopefully a one off and I can just push it down again. Just want it all done.

Unzapped by my brother who I miss terribly who refuses to contact me or return my calls. We'll chat for like five lines each on Facebook and then he just disappears without a word.

I am wondering if he thinks that I have done him wrong in some way, which I haven't. He knew full well since August that he should find somewhere permanent to live but he complacently did nothing.

At least none of our friends are taking his "I got kicked out of home" nonsense.

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Despite my awesome weekend and good news, I am also unemployed by finishing my apprenticeship. It can be tough to find work in this industry (in the sector that I want to work). So tomorrow I must make calls!

try this thread for some info that might help: http://www.inthemix.com.au/forum/sho...#post394745286

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Unzapped by my brother who I miss terribly who refuses to contact me or return my calls. We'll chat for like five lines each on Facebook and then he just disappears without a word.

I am wondering if he thinks that I have done him wrong in some way, which I haven't. He knew full well since August that he should find somewhere permanent to live but he complacently did nothing.

At least none of our friends are taking his "I got kicked out of home" nonsense.

that sucks frizz man

majorly unzapped cos i just found out my cousin is sick again (he had to have part of his bowel removed cos of cancer last year)

slightly unzapped (and feel a bit silly for it) cos i also found out my dad's partner's daughter is getting married in march and didn't invite me or my sis to the wedding. i was gonna invite her and her bloke to mine cos i thought it would be polite to since they're kinda family, dad's been with her mum for like 10 years. but that's quite okay, now there's no pressure on me to include them in anything. i was a bit surprised though. is that weird? i don't know.

i'm tired.

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I've only been taking it since September. Benzos definitely help but they're too addictive! I quit drinking and taking drugs as well and have started taking a vitamin b complex, omega 3, ginseng, and gingko everyday and within a week I've noticed a massive difference. Exercising and eating healthy is a huge help as well.

There really is no need to be dependent on that crap if you take care of yourself.

um no. you can take care of yourself as much as possible and still have a chemical imbalance in your brain that requires medication, through no fault of your own.

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slightly unzapped (and feel a bit silly for it) cos i also found out my dad's partner's daughter is getting married in march and didn't invite me or my sis to the wedding. i was gonna invite her and her bloke to mine cos i thought it would be polite to since they're kinda family, dad's been with her mum for like 10 years. but that's quite okay, now there's no pressure on me to include them in anything. i was a bit surprised though. is that weird? i don't know.

Well at least you get to save money now by not inviting them to yours

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um no. you can take care of yourself as much as possible and still have a chemical imbalance in your brain that requires medication, through no fault of your own.

In most cases (not all), there are more natural ways to balance out those chemicals - like diet and exercise and avoiding drugs and alcohol.

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Well at least you get to save money now by not inviting them to yours

this is very true

i'm not really that bothered by it but it's nice to know where we stand in my pseudo-step-sister's eyes. i mean nothing to you, therefore you mean nothing to me and there's no need for niceties anymore.

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In most cases (not all), there are more natural ways to balance out those chemicals - like diet and exercise and avoiding drugs and alcohol.

Sometimes you need medication to get back to "normal" brain functioning, and then all those things you mentioned can help maintain that.

I just get annoyed at the stigma attached to taking medication. I suffered for a long time because well meaning people discouraged me from getting antidepressants.

Anyway I hope Kelly finds her balance. I know how awful it is to feel anxious all the time.

Unzapped. Today can suck a big fat donkeys asshole. Its a year today since my nana died but I've been managing it ok, however im still a little fragile. Add to that, Finding out a mate at work is battling cancer, well, that's just balls

I'll be in the corner

^ sorry to hear Bergs, I know the feeling, my nan passed away a few years back, it gets better I promise. so sorry to hear about your friend too
Hope you get thru today ok x

Unzapped by eating bad sushi, I can feel it ready to repeat. Dont want to have to spew at work

But then you get to leave yo

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Sometimes you need medication to get back to "normal" brain functioning, and then all those things you mentioned can help maintain that.

I just get annoyed at the stigma attached to taking medication. I suffered for a long time because well meaning people discouraged me from getting antidepressants.

Anyway I hope Kelly finds her balance. I know how awful it is to feel anxious all the time.

It is pretty awful to feel anxious all the time..... I hope you have something in life that helps with that feeling because it's not something anyone deserves to go through.

Some people do benefit from these meds that really need them...if you have a chemical imbalance in your brain diet and exercise aren't going to fix it completely (it sure does help though) but a good portion of people who experience depression/anxiety need a lifestyle change and instead are prescribed medications that do more harm than good. Most doctors will not even refer you to a proper mental health specialist to see if you need medicine or therapy. I wasn't even properly diagnosed with anxiety until last year, after going through feeling like this for a good 10 years.

I get annoyed at how society seems to think there is this magical pill that is going to help you feel better when in reality it is much deeper than that. Have you looked into the effects medications like Zoloft can have on your physical health? Isn't it the least bit scary a medicine designed to affect the neurological functions also have the potential to disrupt the electrical charge in your heart, the lining of your stomach, and your blood pressure among many other things?

I got diagnosed with mild anxiety and mild depression and the first thing the psych said was "meds are definitely out of the question, we can get to the bottom of this very easily". And we did. Turns out I didn't know how to deal with emotions because I never learned to cope when I was younger, I just bottled everything up inside. Ever since that realisation, life has been so much easier.

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I've only been taking it since September. Benzos definitely help but they're too addictive! I quit drinking and taking drugs as well and have started taking a vitamin b complex, omega 3, ginseng, and gingko everyday and within a week I've noticed a massive difference. Exercising and eating healthy is a huge help as well.

There really is no need to be dependent on that crap if you take care of yourself.

Definately a wise move getting off that shit, thats a long enough time to know its not working. I hope you can live med free and be OK without the use of this crap. For some reason I dont really trust all these anti depressant meds.

Today I had to put my dog to sleep... Between the cancer and arthritis, she was in too much pain. She will be sadly missed.
Rest in peace my Puppy Girl, may you hunt many turkeys in Valhalla x

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^ sorry to hear Bergs, I know the feeling, my nan passed away a few years back, it gets better I promise. so sorry to hear about your friend too
Hope you get thru today ok x

Unzapped by eating bad sushi, I can feel it ready to repeat. Dont want to have to spew at work

Thanks dudette!

Hope you feel better ASAP! xx

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It is pretty awful to feel anxious all the time..... I hope you have something in life that helps with that feeling because it's not something anyone deserves to go through.

Some people do benefit from these meds that really need them...if you have a chemical imbalance in your brain diet and exercise aren't going to fix it completely (it sure does help though) but a good portion of people who experience depression/anxiety need a lifestyle change and instead are prescribed medications that do more harm than good. Most doctors will not even refer you to a proper mental health specialist to see if you need medicine or therapy. I wasn't even properly diagnosed with anxiety until last year, after going through feeling like this for a good 10 years.

I get annoyed at how society seems to think there is this magical pill that is going to help you feel better when in reality it is much deeper than that. Have you looked into the effects medications like Zoloft can have on your physical health? Isn't it the least bit scary a medicine designed to affect the neurological functions also have the potential to disrupt the electrical charge in your heart, the lining of your stomach, and your blood pressure among many other things?

I was at the point where I was so anxious, I would go the gym for an hour in the morning, come home and then cry for 2 hours. I'd cry randomly at work, or driving home. Everything worried me and I felt like I was under an enormous weight.
I was having counselling and on medication but still ended up having to quit my job.

These days I am much better. I am still on medication but given that my father died, I moved town, took over running the family business, I'm coping extremely well with a lot of stress and change. I am able to give a lot of support to my mother now that she is struggling with grief and still look after myself.

I have never been on zoloft, I'm on citalopram. Side effects were horrible for first two weeks but after that, pretty ok. Some sleep disturbance which has gone, my blood pressure is normal again. However my libido is missing and has been for over a year. longest drought ever. But I'm not in a relationship so it's not such an issue for me.

but I have known a few people who were put onto zoloft and they all hated it.

I guess the important thing is, look after yourself, but there's no shame in getting help if you need it!

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Today I had to put my dog to sleep... Between the cancer and arthritis, she was in too much pain. She will be sadly missed.
Rest in peace my Puppy Girl, may you hunt many turkeys in Valhalla x

Hope she lived a long and happy life.

Putting a loved family pet to sleep is such a difficult thing to do and go through but it sounds like you've done her a huge favour.

Thanks deck+, she was 12 (human years) and was the most spoilled critter on the face of the planet and it was an honour to have known her, but couldn't bear to see her in pain anymore. *basket case*

that's so sad.

But you did the right thing.

house-hunting seriously sucks...."roomy" and "spacious" units that are tiny, "new" listings being already rented when you ring, inconvenient inspection times (3pm today, 9:40am yesterday, umm..i have a job you know!)....over it.

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house-hunting seriously sucks...."roomy" and "spacious" units that are tiny, "new" listings being already rented when you ring, inconvenient inspection times (3pm today, 9:40am yesterday, umm..i have a job you know!)....over it.

I'm in the same boat from the other side! No you can't come look at my house at 11pm

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house-hunting seriously sucks...."roomy" and "spacious" units that are tiny, "new" listings being already rented when you ring, inconvenient inspection times (3pm today, 9:40am yesterday, umm..i have a job you know!)....over it.

I know that feel all too well! It's so rude that they schedule an inspection time so you have to leave work then don't even bother to give notice that the place has been leased. Definitely have to give each place a call beforehand to make sure it hasn't been leased.

my boyfriend is always in a bad mood on fridays

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my boyfriend is always in a bad mood on fridays

A blowjob can remedy this

Who is he? Opposite man?

^ I was thinking that too however in some jobs fridays can get pretty full on and then you have friday peakhour traffic added to the mix

Haha opposite man made me giggle

Unzapped, even though this is actually a good thing.

Forever alone on valentines day. Unzapped.

Time for beer & porn.

still unzapped by house-hunting....was going to live solo for awhile, but am now considering moving into valley and sharing...but that opens a whole new can of worms of having to find a cool flatmate...argh...

so confused, dont know what to do.

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A blowjob can remedy this

your guy is a lucky man